I really felt this as I have the same issues. But I’ve found if I bow and earnestly pray before work every morning it’s been so much better. Every time I feel myself slipping I think that’s what satan wants. I have been blessed past couple weeks all day at work my mind is constantly on Jesus and all he went through for humanity. Constantly. I’ve done extensive research on specifics, like the nails was more like railroad spikes, the thorns being pushed into his brain, organ failure and the spikes in the feet go through the median bone in the heel of the foot. Heart failure all this and still his words “father forgive them “, the sting of betrayal from inside his group, his own people. I struggle to understand how, all I can do is cry in gratitude and ask myself how dare u get upset over such minor things when our lord truly suffered like this. God bless you all brother and sisters❤️